Changes Are Afoot

When life gets so busy that things seem to run together (and the lines of things blur and fade so that it's hard to keep everything separate and straight), little things stand out.

Are illuminated.

Like the friend who suggests we take my kids mini golfing. For fun. Because she thinks it would be fun. Then, she plans it...
Like the baby running so quickly toward me when I returned from a couple of days away that he fell flat on his face, but he was so excited to see me that he didn't care; just got up and ran the rest of the way, laughing when I scooped him up into my arms...
Like the look on my dear friend's face when I told her I was worried she was compromising herself...
Like the touch of the most beautiful hands in the world...
Like the surprise of tears that come during a silly argument...
Like the laughter of your child...
Like the happy surprise of an email from a childhood friend...
Like those little glimpses of hope that things will be okay...
Like how it feels to be hugged by someone who will never stop loving you...

When I try to go through my days, these things stand out...other things are blurry. But these things are the things that matter.

I'm thinking it'll be a bit quieter here for a while. It's not what it's supposed to be for me anymore...I'm not free to write everything I need or want to write. Maybe someday I will be. But right now, I can't, and I'm sure my cryptic posts aren't very satisfying for you...though they're at least something for me.

I haven't figured it out yet.

I won't go away completely. I can't stop writing! And I know people check for pictures often (hi, Mom!)...so...I'll just have to figure out what to do. I may leave this blog for pictures and updates on the boys, and start a new one somewhere else where I can write freely.

I love you.

I'll keep you updated.